Operation Rockstar
31 Jan
In the past three weeks I’ve had more rejections than I’ve had in maybe a year previous. That’s mostly because I did two short story subs all last year, and the stories I wrote in 2009 are finally ready to be sent out, of course, but whatever. My point is that life is hopping up and down on my ego.
Franz Liszt is a rockstar.
But it’s not. I feel weirdly impervious to any and all batting down because, my friends, I am a fucking rockstar right now. Like that guy over there, yeah. (That guy being Franz Liszt. Or Dorian Gray, depending on which edition of the book you own– but the principle is the same.)
No, I’m not. Obviously I’m not. I’m a chick sitting at a little desk in the corner coughing up random sentences that may or may not someday form a proper story. But the honeymoon is so good with this book I’m working on. It’s not that I think what I’m writing is worthwhile; I know it’s a complete mess. Of the 30k and change I have right now, probably 10k will survive, and suspect that not even that is very good.
But oh my god, I’m having so much fun I don’t care. And so, I feel like a rockstar. This is why I keep coming back, even after a round of queries that makes me want to throw my computer out the window. Because seeing it come to life is a serious addiction.
As you all doubtless know, this period lasts about a week or two after the initial onset, so I am going to revel in it as much as I can before the “Oh god, how will I ever fix this crappy novel?” phase sets in. I thought I’d share in the meantime, since I know I’m not the only one.
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Now playing: Julian Plenti – Only If You Run
via FoxyTunes
Ooooh yeah. Been there, So many times.
Enjoy being a rockstar while it lasts, though! I always do!
This is why we are kindred spirits: “because, my friends, I am a fucking rockstar right now”. Haha! Love it!
If only we could perpetually be in the honeymoon phase with every story we write. But dude! That’s fantastic that you are having so much fun with this one. Sure, it’s a toil, but when the fun outweighs that, it’s definitely cause for celebration. Keep at it! Woo!
Yay! I bow down to your rockstar awesomeness. So good to know it’s flowing so well. Keep on rocking that book
Yeah, what Corinne said…and I loved th line “Because seeing it come to life is a serious addiction.” Right on, dude! I hope to have the same addiction someday.
Okay Rockstar, enjoy. I know that feeling. I love that feeling. Do anything and everything while you believe you can.
Sue, I will– and here’s to your next Rockstar Phase too!
Mary, we totally are– kindred ROCKSTAR spirits. It’s always a slog, especially once you get past the middle and start to realize you’re not doing it right… but man. Honeymoon FTW.
Cory, I shall try. As long as I have myself convinced I can rock it, anyhow, I might at least get it done!
Alan, it’s the most addictive of all addictions– but at least it’s sorta productive, right? Er, yeah. Right!
Aaron, that’s exactly what I mean, and it’s such a rare moment. Like a writer endorphin rush.
So you’re a rock star AND a groupie? The universe might implode ; )
At least you’re submitting. I’ve yet to send out anything this year.
… I think you’re a rockstar…
(This rockstar feeling… this is why I can’t imagine ever doing drugs. There is nothing on the planet I can smoke, snort, inject, or imbibe that is going to ever make me feel that good.)
Nat, I figure most rock stars were groupies once. Or at least Band-Aids. (Yeah, I still love Almost Famous.)
Danielle, that was me last year. These things take time to go through the wringer– or the multiple wringers, if you’re me.
Megh, we pretty much rock. And while I do think some drugs are worth it, certainly not for the high (more for the stfu low. Depressants rule)! You’re too right, nothing matches it.
At least you are writing. keep it up.
I can’t wait to be a rockstar again… At the moment I haven’t got enough voice to even sing out of tune.